:: tough love ::

I've learned some things about myself that were hard to hear. I think everyone should have a friend like mine; someone who knows when to tell you what you need to hear regardless of how much it might hurt. Friends like that are rare and hard to find. I'm pretty lucky.

Thanks to my friend, my skeletons have been exposed to more daylight. And though they may still point and laugh at me from time to time, I know I'm not alone; now someone else knows the sound of their laughter. As for the fortress they reside in, it's only a matter of time before I own the deed and have them evicted!

Stone by Stone

I have a wall you cannot see,
Because it's deep inside of me.
It blocks my heart on every side,
And helps emotions there to hide.
You can't reach in,
I can't reach out,
You wonder what it's all about.

The wall I built that you can't see,
Results from insecurity.
Each time my tender heart was hurt,
The scars within grew worse and worse.
So stone by stone,
I built a wall,
That's now so thick it will not fall.

Please understand that it's not you,
Continue trying to break through.
I want so much to show myself,
And love from you will really help.
So bit by bit,
Chip at my wall,
'Till stone by stone it starts to fall.

I know the process will be slow,
It's never easy to let go,
Of hurts and failures long ingrained,
Upon one's heart from years of pain.
I'm so afraid,
To let you in,
I know I might get hurt again.

I try so hard to break the wall,
But seem to get nowhere at all.
For stone upon each stone I've stacked,
And left between them not a crack.
The only way,
To make it fall,
Are imperfections in the wall.

I did the best I could to build,
A perfect wall but there are still,
A few small flaws which are the key,
To breaking through the wall to me.
Please use each flaw,
To cause a crack,
To knock a stone off of the stack.

For just as stone by stone was laid,
With every hurt with every pain,
So stone by stone the wall will break,
As love replaces every ache.
Please be the one,
Who cares enough,
To find the flaws no matter what.

~Rachel N Bentley