:: take my world apart ::

I am the only one to blame for this
Somehow it all ends up the same
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide
With a world I try so hard to leave behind
To rid myself of all but love
To give and die

To turn away and not become
Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loved
More deeply than the oceans,
More abundant than the tears
Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice?
Oh, grip the spear and watch the blood and the water flow

(To love You)
Take my world apart
(To need You)
I am on my knees
(To love You)
Take my world apart
(To need You)
Broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone
Amongst remains of a life I should not own
It takes all I am to believe
In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?
All I am for all you are
'Cause what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

And I pray
(To love You)
Take my world apart
(To need You)
I am on my knees
(To love You)
Take my world apart
(To need You)
Broken on my knees
On my knees


I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nail that still remains
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
Battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain,
And wash my feet and cleanse my pride
Take the selfish, take the weak,
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
My sin-soaked heart - make it yours
Take my world all apart,
Take it now, take it now
And serve the ones that I despise
Speak the words I can't deny
Watch the world I used to love
Fall to dust and blow away
I look beyond the empty cross
Forgetting what my life has cost
And wipe away the crimson stains
And dull the nail that still remains
Steal my heart and take the pain
Take the selfish, take the weak
And all the things I cannot hide
Take the beauty, take my tears
Take my world apart
Take my world apart
And I pray, and I pray, and I pray
Take my world apart
Worlds apart

:: jars of clay ::

:: worry ::

"There is a lovely little passage in Matthew 6, from the Sermon on the Mount, do not worry. I have encountered this passage many times throughout my life, as any person that has attended church can testify, but often it is almost impossible to actually apply its command to real life. Almost every spare instant in my life is filled with worry, despite the fact that I know how pointless the practice is, in all actuality.

However, I am beginning to understand the importance of living my life without the burden of worry. I am trying to comprehend how insignificant all my worries truly are in the big scheme of things, accepting God and His peace as the only way to reach any level of contentment and happiness.

Next time every decision in your life seems to be staring you straight in the face and everything you have so carefully constructed seems to be collapsing, remember the futility of worrying. Instead of lending yourself to despair and anxiety and trying to add days onto your life, please take a chance to remember the timing and sovereignty of God and allow Him to provide you with comfort.

He has and will provide you with everything that you need; be content to rest in His arms and accept His peace because it might just change your life."

:: relevant magazine ::

:: don't read unless you like eavesdropping ::

I just read my x's blog. Didn't expect to end up there but I did. Learned all about the new girlfriend and about how she's 'everything I wasn't'. You know what? Good for him. Meanwhile, I'm not feeling too hot anymore. *Should have found a newspaper.*

God, I feel like such a fool. Not because I lack self esteem, but because I compromised so much without ever realizing it. I can only blame myself. And my heart still listens to the taunting laughter that mocks my foolishness. Forgive me. Its so hard to ignore sometimes. Its even harder to accept that the best parts of me were overlooked. In a way I sort of wish it never happened, but then what lessons would I have missed?

I think the worst part is knowing that I wasted so much in that relationship. I know without a doubt that I was ready to be in one, I just chose the wrong guy. Having a heart that longs so badly for the real thing doesn't seem to help much either. God, my dream seems so dead now. What ever happened to that prince? Why did I give him up? I used to pray for him. Expect him. Now?...

You want my thoughts of inadequacy? The rejection and hurt too? Sure. They're really not working for me anyways. Here, You can hold my heart too. I trust You with it. For now I'll sit alone with my dreams and try to restore the prince I once believed in, and... wait.

:: you should be proud of yourselves ::

It's time for me to announce which one of you is better than the rest! *lol* But before I do, I'd just like to say that you all know me far too well. I encourage you to get some serious therapy. (You'd be amazed at what my sock puppets can do!)

And now, without further delay, I give you the Guess What Is Maeghan's Thinking Right Now Awards... *drum roll*










Congratulations Wendy! Your prize is 25 pennies!!! Trade them in to hear my thoughts incase you don't get them right the first time.

Thanks to all who participated. You're all winners in my book!

:: contest is closing ::

It must be said that there are some pretty good contenders and judging will prove to be difficult. Thank you for all your brilliant entries. This is your last chance to make both your comments incase you haven't. Actually, I've decided to allow for one more should you feel you can do one better. Contest closes in 24 hours and the winner will be announced in my next post.

Thank you to all participants, however only the winner will be awarded with a prize (of no cash value). Runners up will be rightly mentioned (in no particular order) and may be required to answer a skill testing question... or not.

Once again, good luck and may the best man win!