:: the pursuit of happiness ::

A friend of mine recently shared his feelings of 'undatableness' and not being able to grasp the concept of trusting God to bring the right person into his life. I think it's safe to say we all know exactly how he feels - myself included. Honestly though, I've got a bit of a beef with the Mr./Mrs. Right issue.

Is it just me, or are we all a little disillusioned?

I think we've idolized the whole idea, probably without ever knowing it. We're bombarded with it constantly because 'they' tell us it's the next logical thing to do. Then suddenly we start to see our singleness as a deficiency; no wonder we make it such a priority. But do we really believe that someone else could make our lives any more complete then it already is?

I know I've lead myself to believe that Prince Charming is out there somewhere looking for me, and that one day he'll come sweep me off my feet and carry me away. But the truth is, that person does not exist. And thank God he doesn't! Why would anyone be so quick to dismiss the life they already have when the goal has always been to share it with someone else?

Obviously we don't have it right, especially if God is having us repeat the same lessons over and over again. Love your God with all your heart, mind and soul. Lean not to your own understanding. The plans I have for you are to give you a hope and a future. Maybe it's time we started paying attention.

I guess what I'm trying to suggest is that perhaps our desire for such a close relationship is the same thing that's holding us back from fulfilling God's plan for our life? I'm not saying it's wrong to want it, I just saying that maybe it's time we re-focused our efforts. God is the jealous type, so wouldn't it make sense that He'd be our first love? Therefore, wouldn't it be wise to practice on the one relationship we already have?

It's not about trusting God to bring the right someone into your life. We already believe that. I think it's about enjoying the right Someone you already have in your life and sharing it with the people around you. And personally, I think that's pretty attractive.

:: crazy going slowly am i ::

I REALLY did NOT want to get out of bed this morning. I'm still very tired from being sick and all the work we had to do to our new place. Add to that my morning disillusionment to my new surroundings and... *OH BOY!*

It only takes me 10 minutes to get to work now so I'm waking up later. But when I was in the shower I was thinking I still had to leave at 7:20 so I started freaking out. I had to remind myself that I was still on time. But when I looked at my watch it said it was 7:50 and I was like, "AHH I have to be at work like... NOW!" So I'm rushing like mad and look at my watch once again. It's still 7:50 and I'm like, "AHHH... Hey wait a minute?!" Ya. My watched stopped. *ARGH*

As it turns out I'm nice and early so I decided pulled into the Timmy' drive thru. *DUMB IDEA* Everyone AND THEIR MOM was there!! By the time I got out of there I was officially running late.

*WHAT THE HECK*... I'm pulling into the 403 and I see flashing lights. *CRAP* Thank God it was just some cop pulling someone over. However, everybody's 'conveniently' rubber-necking!! *GOOD GOD MAN! Like you've never seen that before*

And just when I thought it couldn't get any better... I turn off to make my way up Hwy 6 and it gets super slow. *good times* I get to the top of the mountain and discover that Hwy 5 towards Flamborough is COMPLETELY BLOCKED OFF!! *you've got to be kidding me?!* At which point I'm like... "Ya I DON'T know where I'm going or HOW I'm going to get to work!?!" As I'm searching for Plan B I eventually get turned back around and merge back into the nasty traffic. Luckily I had LOTS of time to figure out WHAT Plan B was going to be. *BAH* I ended up going back to the 403 and through Copetown. An HOUR later I made it to work.

Needless to say it's been a slow start!