It's suddenly dawned on me that I have been ignoring my gifts and have been settling for a stationery life that comes from impatience with God's plan. One of my main concerns lately has been that I am single. I am single, and I do not want to be. I am single, and I know who I want Mr. Answer-to-my-prayers to be. I am single, and therefore life sucks. That's been my thought pattern. I'm sitting around waiting for life (which I figured came in the form of the word "marriage") to come to me, instead of me going after life (which is NOT the equivalent to marriage.)
The way I spend my time worrying over my singleness actually hinders me in many ways from not only using my gifts, but from growing in my relationship with God, touching the lives of others in an effective way and is causing me to waste many, many hours of my free time. My foolishness is quite embarrassing, and it's gotten me nowhere. The way God is speaking to my heart makes me now quite convinced that this period of singleness in my life is something so much more precious than it appears. It is an amazing time of growth, independence, maturing, overcoming and becoming.
My heart’s desire now is that I will not simply aim to get married, but that I will aim to thrive—in my relationship with God, my relationships with others, my gifts, my compassions and life.
Being available sets me free. It is a gift, to set my dry life in motion. My only job now is to THRIVE in all that God has for me and to (although I hate this word) WAIT.
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"A woman's heart should be so lost in her Lord, that a man should have to seek God to get to it."
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