You know those God moments that leave you dumb-founded for about three seconds, after which you say something like, "Seriously?!" and it's followed by a swift smack upside the head that provokes you to say something else like, "Okay, OKAY!!!". Ya, the one I just had went something like that.
I've been wrestling a lot of different things lately and one of them has been my job. I don't hate my job - it's a good job - but I'm not satisfied working where I am. So I guess the shortened version of this ordeal is that I want to quit my job and do ministry. *?!?* (God that scares me to even read that.)
I don't know!?! I just know that my life should be so much more than this, and that's a really powerful and scary thing to want to grasp into and run after.
I must be INSANE to even be considering this!?! My life would be so much more... hard!
It's absolutely ridiculous but I can't help it! Existing just isn't good enough for me any more and I know this sounds like a bunch of evangelistic bull**** but it suddenly makes a heck of a lot of sense. You can't really understand it until you get there yourself. The only thing I say for sure is that kingdom of heaven business is tough and the deeper you go with God the more and more impossible it becomes to live a 'normal' life.
We must allow the Word of God to confront us, to disturb our security, to undermine our complacency and to overthrow our patterns of thought and behaviour. -- John Stott
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