:: heartache ::

i'm a deep person. i feel and think on levels most people don't. most days it's a gift i'm grateful for, but when pain hits it doesn't manage well.

today i hurt. i hurt because i'm too humanitarian, i don't ask for help and i analyze way too much. i hurt because i always seem to get the short end of the stick no matter what. i hurt because i'm good people and bad things keep happening. i hurt because its never my turn to win. and i hurt because there's always somebody else.

its a physical pain that my heart just can't handle much longer. i desperately need things to change; like right now. i need to experience the up-swing of life again. i need to be wanted. i want to be loved. i don't want to worry that things can't get better.

God, please send change. my heartache is too much.