Of all the things I could ever wish for, this would be it. I want to know - really know - love.
I get it with you, God; it makes perfect sense, but how does that make sense with anyone else?
Why don't guys prove themselves any more? Do guys like that even exist?
Am I the one who is disillusioned?
I want to know this love.
I feel like I've been taught to believe in fairy tales, grown up with the effects of dysfunction and now am left challenging my own standards!
Am I totally out to lunch in believing whole-heartedly that there is a guy out there, complete in everything I'm hoping and dreaming for, whom I am worthy of... or does my prince charming need to be knocked off his horse?
I wish I knew where the real men where.
The ones who know their God, who believe in something bigger than themselves and live for it every day. The ones who fight for what is good, holy and acceptable to Him.
The ones who live with passion and risk, goals and dreams, vision and truth. The ones who lead with the character of Christ.
The ones who laugh without shame, play for rest and love with reckless abandon.
Where are they? Where can I find them?
How can I attract one?!
God, my heart physically aches for him. I don't know how anyone could want to join me in my mess or how I could ever be ready for theirs, but I want it anyways. I want to be a righteous fox. I want to be captivating and loved.
Love me. Captivate me, Father. I want to know you more. Be patient with me as I work to restore my failing intimacy with you.
1 comment:
You are captivating, and I bet it won't be long and the right person will be there. Read your words, they are energizing.
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